Yeah, have been quiet for a while. I don't know what to say. Been angry with the world again. I know it is not the way. The small things in life are giving me feelings of joy. Tricks the boy plays. All the different and beautiful personalities at work [place of employment]. Snow. Signs of spring coming. Music. A picture of: My dad going to Africa and finding him a little Akon (don't mean to generalize.... but hey......) to foster parent. Strolling through the city looking at people living their lives. Creating their experiences.
I feel a drive inside of me urging me to step in the arena and start to f*#king participate. ...before it is too f*#king late. So, I'm making plans. Did BodyPump last Monday for the first time in months. Am in the process of writing an open application. Writing lyrics for my future band. Bang on the guitar a lot. The guitar is a bright highlight at the moment. I finally found the peace of mind to actually play, without stress. I don't have to be good at it. I just enjoy playing. I don't care how well everybody else can play. I'm making progress.
My lover is in the hospital after surgery today. She calls me and tells me she's in pain. ...and I can't do shit. Other than waiting for her to come home.
This whole thing makes me despise team sports even more. Somebody jumps on your back during a basketball game and wrecks your knee. No apology, no asking 'you alright', no nothing. And the team mates are not particularly lining up to come over and visit. You can skip the 'team' from the term. ...the term 'team sport' alltså.
[Another element of this world to be angry and frustrated about: competition. Go and show off somewhere else! We, the weaker motherf*#kers, can feel pathetic without you!] Ok....
Ya, you see how easy it is to get me started. Time to move over to the meditation bench.
नमस्ते
Namasté
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.............. waar je zin heb...
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